Then I realized I’m doing to them what they’re doing to me, so I wrote about it and did photography about it.
DO YOU LOOK AT YOURSELF AS AN INSPIRATIONAL STORY? It’s no different than when I first started going to AA meetings and there’d be a cat sitting there with five, 10 years of sobriety, and he’d say something and I’d think, “I kinda want what that cat’s got.” That guy’s got his wife and his kids and his job and seems really happy. Most of his days seem really good and when he has bad days he knows how to handle them. That guy is inspirational; in that sense I would accept that — but no more than that. It’s hard to be in Ringling Brothers and be the Dalai Lama.
SPEAKING OF THE CIRCUS, YOU GET RECOGNIZED BY MANY AS THE LEADER OF MÖTLEY CRÜE. DO YOU LOOK AT IT AS YOUR BABY OR LIKE YOUR FAMILY YOU’RE TRYING TO KEEP TOGETHER? No, we’re a band. Like all families, we each have a role, and I don’t think it works without all the family members. I definitely have a role, but so does Vince, so does Tommy and so does Mick. A lot of times people will go to different band members for different sources of energy and sources of information. If you hate us it’s okay. I get to be in a band with Mick Mars, Tommy Lee, and Vince Neil; it’s kind of amazing.
I’m the pretty solid rock guy and that’s because I’ve worked on that — I wasn’t always like that. “Nikki always returns our calls, he always gets back to us, he’s always available for conversations and stuff and he’ll always go and talk with the band.” But at the same time, I am the fucking broodiest, moodiest, crankiest . . . I am a fucking rock-and-roll snob. So they might have to go to Vince and say, “Hey man, we want to do this tie-in with this company, and Nikki is just like, doesn’t want fuckin’ nothin’ to do with it because he don’t think it’s cool.” And Vince is like, “Yeah, I can see where he’s coming from, but let me go and talk to him.” And Tommy will want to do this crazy energy thing . . . and we all just feed off each other. We all are a rock to the band in one way or another and we all are the downfall of the band in one way or another. I’m just surprised we’re even still around.
WHAT'S IT LIKE ONSTAGE THESE DAYS WITH THE CRÜE, 30 YEARS IN? My friend saw us play the Hollywood Bowl and he said, “Man, we you came out and did ‘Wild Side’ it was fucking mind-blowing!” And I said, “Oh.” And he wanted to know why I said that. Because that’s the first song, and I’m trying to see which people I’m gonna douse in blood. And he said, “But you were prowling back and forth, it was so intimidating!” I wasn’t “prowling,” I was looking for anyone who was cringing. Anyone who is cringing is on my blacklist and looking to get baptized in a bucket of blood. I only think about insulting and assaulting. I want to fuck them hard.